Showing posts with label marathon. Show all posts
Showing posts with label marathon. Show all posts

Monday, February 15, 2016

Run 140 miles in her shoes

I am a woman. I am a mother, daughter, midwife, therapist, survivor, and runner. Most recently, I've become emersed into the world of substance use disorders.

I'm an advocate for maternal wellness and looking at maternal health and mental health as a social justice issue. I'm a survivor of a pregnancy mental health complication, eating disorder, PTSD, and running has been a key part of getting to know who I really am and what my purpose in being is. 

I survived postpartum anxiety after the births of each of my three children, the last of my three hit me the hardest, and led me into a downward spiral of battling an eating disorder that was destroying my life and health. Through my own recovery process I ended up with a degree in mental health, and was naturally drawn to pregnancy and postpartum mental health because of my training and professional background in the birth field. 

Part of the reason I am so passionate about helping mamas be well and feel well both mentally and physically is because I know that a nation of untreated mothers is leading to a nation of sick people and social dysfunction. Fixing our maternity care system and supporting motherhood is the fundamental power of a healthy and loving society. 

As I have become a professional in women's issues I've been drawn to addressing addiction as a complication of  childbirth. While there is a lack of research and data in this area, studies that are available suggest that accidental drug overdose and suicide are the leading cause of maternal mortality. 

On February 11th I embarked on a journey to raise awareness and support for identifying and treating mothers at risks and shedding light on the problem of maternal addiction. Utah ranks number 8 in the nation for deaths related to drug overdose. I decided to join forces with Addict II Athlete and run 140 miles around my neighborhood.

The journey was transformative for me, because the cause of creating safry nets for motherhood is my passion. Throughout my journey, no amount of pain or discomfort was greater then my desire to run 140 miles and finish on February 13th. 

The conditions I was running in were an erie parrallell to the damage that is created by not treating mothers. I woke up to the worst inversion air Utah has ever seen. I ran for 2.5 days in air that was not advisable to breath. The toxic fog brought on challenges that I had to work solely with my higher power to move through.

It was 8:40 am in the morning on February 11th, and I set up my aid station and donation tarp in front of my house. With a bit of intrepidation I tied my shoes, took a breath of the fog filled air that felt searing to my lungs, and took my first lap around my .45 mile block. With each lap the air and cold settled into my lungs and skin and I accepted the fact that these conditions were not going to change. 

Day one was full of more breaks, and I finished my first 50 miles around 1am on Friday morning. The cold humidity and toxic wetness made every part of me want to stop, but I knew I had to get to mile 50 if I was going to finish by Saturday night. I got a few hours of sleep, and woke up to a fog that was twice as thick and heavy as the day before. 

Wanting to delay my start, hoping that the fog would lift, and finally with a push from my coach, Lisa Smith-Batchen, I made it out the door again by 8:30 am. Thursday's miles had mostly consisted of running about 45 of the 50 miles around one specific block. By Friday morning I realized that I needed  to extend my course in order to avoid fixating on the comforts that my home provided. If I was to finish and stay on track, I needed to run further away from my comfort zone so that I would rise above the discouragement and easy ability to stop. 

Other than a few laps, with Brandie and Jason Hawks, Judy Sumsion, and Joal Lyons most of my first 80 miles were done alone. My neighbor Michelle Willmore kept coming by to check on my progress and see what I needed.
Around mile 75  I felt alone, and I started to feel discouraged and the weight of the task became heavy. It was right at that moment that a crew of individuals from Addict II Athlete started showing up right when I couldn't mentally take it on my own anymore. The support changed everything, and one of my friends, Jeff Smith, walked and ran with me through the night as the fog once again settled in think and heavy. 

Others who came out to support me on Friday were Terri and Robert Sawyer, Savannah and Tyson Rich, Coach Blu and Marissa Robinson and Jed Jenson and crew. 

The night track was slower, and the more tired my body became, the more effort it took to stay on track to finish on Saturday. By 7 am we made it back to the house for a break and hit mile 104. Breaking 100 miles was a mental challenge, and getting to 104 I started to have hope that I really could finish what I set out to do.

 After a short bath and 30 minutes of rest, I decided to run inside around my pool table until the air outside cleared a little. The air had started to hurt my lungs. I did that for about 7 miles, and during that 7 miles another friend, Cat showed up. As soon as she had to leave, around 112 miles another member of AIIA showed up with his wife blasting motivating music as he joined me for about 6-7 miles and she followed with her van the whole time cheering us on. My spirits were lifted and my speed increased dispite the fatigue my body felt. 


As I hit 120 miles Jeff and Callie came back and Christy Long showed up. We stared to trek up Hobble Creek canyon n when I made them stop and change directions and instead go into Mapleton. Andrea and Justin Garn joined us, and we set out to complete the last 19 miles.  I distracted myself by taking them to my childhood home, and we completed a half marathon circling East and South Mapleton before finally reaching home, and setting out for the last 7 miles.


Throughout the day my spirit overcame dispair and was replaced with hope, and by the last 7 miles a deep resolve set in, and I broke into a run. When I came around the corner, my neighbors Michelle and Keith Willmore, had set up a finish line and my husband,Jeff, and daughter, Helen,  Callie, and the Willmores were there cheering as I sprinted at full speed through the finish. 

Along the way, people heard the message and I am humbled by the response of strangers who have been touched and completed to donate to Addict II Athlete. 

I want to thank everyone who came out to support me. Just like recovery, a run like this is more successful with a support system. Without the team coming to walk with me, keeping my resolve would have been more difficult. 

To donated to AIIA and support the fight for mothers recovering from addiction please go to:

http://addicttoathlete.org/donate/

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Wasatch 100, 2014 race report

October is Dysautonomia Awareness Month! Please consider a donation to Dysautonomiainternational.org. I'm grateful I can run, because 25% of those struggling with POTS are significantly impared by their illness, and I'm in the 50% that still is struggling more than 4 years after being diagnosed. I'm seeing improvements, but many people struggle the rest of their lives. 


It was a temperate Thursday afternoon on September 4 th, as I pulled into Sugarhouse park like I have in years past. Here it was again, the prerace briefing of the Wasatch 100, one of the toughest 100 mile races in the Rocky Mountains.

Think back to 2010, my first attempt at Wasatch 100, just 3 months after being diagnosed with Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS). That year my body was in peril and I was in trouble with my hydration by the time I hit Francis Peak aid station at mile 18.4, just 20 minutes before the cut off. DNFing that year was the right thing to do, my body just wasn't functioning properly enough, and I had had some trips to the ER and many days in bed unable to move. 

The second attempt occurred in 2012, this time still not fully working and a months after a hystorectomy I made it not even all the way to Francis peak 1 full hour after the cut off. 

Discouraged and defeated I decided not to start in 2013 and instead helped run aid at Pole Haven, and decided that I would train much harder for 2014, and work with Lisa Smith-Batchen on improving my running prognosis. Starting in January I finished a snowshoe 50K, and then 62 miles of Buffalo 100 in March, and then Squaw Peak 50 miler (which I had not been able to finish since 2010), and then Deseret News Marathon,  38 of Kat'cina Mosa 100k, and finally Wasatch 100 came. 

I knew that the first 18 would be tough for me because of POTS, my heart rate goes up too much on hill climbs, and it slows me down, but I kept a slow and steady pace and reached Francis Peak aid Station at mile 11:41, 19 minutes before the cut off. Feeling good, and moving on I continued to Swallow Rocks at mile 35, and made the decision to drop when it was 7pm, and I still had 4.5 miles to Big Mountain and would not make it before the cuttoff at 7:30pm, my decision to drop at Swallow Rocks was of courtesy to the aid workers to not have to wait for me when I was going to time out anyway, and because I'm running another 100miler, Yellowstone/Teton 100 on September 20-21.

I feel very good after Wasatch and recovered quickly, and am feeling confident about a finish for YT100, because I am much faster on road, and not as many steep hill climbs. 

I'm hoping to return to Wasatch in 2015, and with another good year of training have a finish! 

One thing that has been helping lately is I started taking q96, and have noticed: better tolerance to heat, my heart rate is more stable, I have a lot more energy overall,  and I have stopped taking 2 of the medications I was on to control my POTS symptoms. 

All in all, I feel hopeful because I doubled my distance at Wasatch this year , and am on my way to finishing it! 








Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Ultramarathon Running and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome(POTS)



Running Ultramarathons with POTS: Recovering Strength and Endurance

By: Tara Tulley LDEM, LCSW

A few individuals have asked me lately how I have been able to continue running with POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome). I decided I would write my story on how I discovered I had this condition, how it has affected my life, and how I have decided to run anyway.

In 2007 I completed my first marathon, Deseret New Classic Marathon on July 24th. At that time I was also recovering from a long-term eating disorder, and was warned repeatedly that running would kill me. I found the opposite to be true; I found that running was the catalyst that changed how I viewed my body. I started to respect my body and appreciate the abilities that it had to endure, and through a long journey now consider myself fully recovered from an eating disorder, and no longer struggle with the daemons that kept my head bound for many years. Two months after completing my first marathon, I decided to run in the Top of Utah Marathon. I loved running distance so much, that I wondered how many other marathons there were around Utah, and it was then I was introduced to the world of the Ultramarathon.













In October of 2007, I ran and completed the Ogden Valley 50 miler. No one thought I could do it, I had only run two marathons, and had not done much distance training before that summer.  I not only completed a 50 miler, but also discovered that I was not as tired and sore after running 50 miles as I had been running marathons.

In fall of 2007, I also decided to return to school. I had been a practicing midwife in Utah for about 8 years, and had been politically active in passing legislation to license midwives. When I went back to school, I initially thought I would complete another bachelor’s degree that would get me into a Nursing program, with the eventual goal of becoming a nurse practitioner. Somehow that plan changed and I ended pursuing a degree in social work, and a Masters degree at the University of Utah. 



In 2008, I decided to take things a step further. I signed up for the Utah Grand Slam, completing 5 marathons in a 4-month period, and also completed two 50-mile races. I also starting training in Mauy Thai, and started participating in local smoker bouts.

In 2009, my speed was getting better, I signed up for more challenging mountain races. It was during an attempt at the Kat’cina Mosa 100K that I started noticing some odd things about my running. Mountain racing was a different ballgame than road running. In the heat of the August summer, I ran out of water on a difficult 9-mile stretch of the race, and became seriously dehydrated. Making it difficult to traverse down the mountain I experienced dizziness, hallucinations, and made it to the aid station 1 hour after the cut off time. I was completely defeated and demoralized, because it was my first time not being able to finish a race. Brushing it off to poor planning with hydration, and 100-degree temperatures I thought it was a fluke. I attempted the Bear 100 miler in September that year, and again had the dehydration issue and had to drop at mile 45.



During the fall of 2009 I started my Masters program at the University of Utah. I would typically awake at 5am and drive to Salt Lake City to beat traffic, and arrive early at school. I would then go for an early morning run, sometime meeting my brother, Swan, at his training gym (he was working as an elite triathlete coach), and we would run around Sugarhouse Park, and then I would run back to school. I would spend a long day at school and then go home. The days I was not in school, I was working as an intern at the Utah County Justice Center, and also spent long days at that practicum. During the in-between hours I studied and sometimes slept.

In April of 2010, I decided to go down to the Grand Canyon with Jim Skaggs and Brian Beckstead to run the Rim-to-Rim-to-Rim challenge. We started at Bright Angel Trail on the South Rim early in the morning, and made our way to the North Rim. I was able to keep up with them for the first 19 miles, but around mile 17, when the heat of the day started hitting, I started feeling very sluggish and sick. At mile 19, at the beginning of the assent to the North rim. I had to stop, and I could no longer keep up with the boys. After lying down to take a short nap, I felt better enough to slowly climb the North Rim.  I was about ½ mile from the top when they passed on their way down, and I felt OK by then, so I told them to go on, and I would return at my own pace.

During the day I had been taking about one Scap (300mg or so) of Sodium per hour, and eating mostly Lara Bars and gels. On the way down I started feeling week, but not horrible yet. When I was about 7 miles from Phantom ranch, I started feeling sick, and was running out of food. I had not understood how much I needed to carry for a self-supported run. I made it to Phantom ranch just after dark, and was able to sneak into the store to buy a few items.

After crossing the bridge at the Colorado River, I crashed. I was dizzy and weak, and slowly made my way up the 9-mile stretch, and finally made it out of the canyon about 3am. I was out of Scaps, out of food, and no stores are open in the Grand Canyon at 3am. I quietly drove back to the campsite, and in the morning found Brian, who had come down with me, and he had to drive my van back the 10 hours to Utah. I experienced hyponatremia and it was a very scary experience. I almost passed out several times when I would stand up and my ears were ringing. I think I ate a whole plate of bacon, and could not even taste it because I was so depleted of sodium. It took me about 3 days of hydrating and drinking sports drinks before I could taste normally again.

In May of 2009 I attended a Global Eating Disorder Conference, and listened to a presentation by Dr. Elizabeth Joy. After hearing her presentation, I knew she might be able to figure out what was wrong with me. I had started experiencing other strange symptoms after the Grand Canyon run. I started having issues with my blood sugar. Any time I ate carbohydrates, my blood sugar would spike to 200-300 on a glucometer reading and then return to normal within 90 minutes.  I also started dealing with increasingly extreme fatigue. By the time that I ended the May 2010 school year I could barely get out of bed. Some days, I would sleep most of the day, and still be tired. Moving was a surreal experience, sometimes I felt like I was not even connected to my body. After seeing Dr. Joy in June, she immediately suspected that I had POTS syndrome. She ran several blood tests on me, and the only one that came back positive was a norepinephrine test showing that I had a pretty good case of androgenic POTS. Dr. Joy told me that what I was doing, running (to increase my blood circulation), increasing salt intake, and caffeine 100mg in the morning was about the best I could do for POTS, and she discouraged me from using a Beta Blocker, which is used in some POTS patients, because she was afraid it would interfere with my distance running.

At the time I was working with a sports nutritionist, and so we started a painstaking process to unravel how to keep my body functioning and able to run.  I was able to complete one 50 miler in June, by putting scaps in my hydration pack and drinking Coconut water. During that race my nutritionist told me to try taking 1500mg of sodium per hour, which was about twice what is recommended for a normal person. I completed the race, but still had difficulty and was still hyponatremic after the race. After that race I ended up in the ER three times needing IV fluids to stabilize, and having more blood sugar issues. For about a month I could barely get out of bed. But I kept forcing myself to move. When you have POTS, every morning when you wake up, it’s like you have the flu. The one way to get over the symptoms for me was to make myself move past it and get my blood circulating, then the flu symptoms would be not as bad when I was moving. 

My nutritionist had me increase both my potassium and sodium intake to 10000mg potassium daily and 5000mg of sodium daily on days I was not active. In the mean time I worked with my Uncle, Dr. Kory Branham, who believed my POTS was likely tied to my adrenal gland function, especially given the blood sugar issues I was having. This was a plausible theory, as my paternal grandmother suffered from Addison’s disease. Over a couple of months of taking a lot of supplements and slowly making myself return to exercise, I was able to reduce my need for sleep to 12-14 hours per day instead of 20 hours per day, and I attempted a couple of races.

The next race, 2010, was the Speed Goat 50K. My nutritionist had me taking 3000-5000mg of sodium per hour in the heat at this point. This was helpful for my energy and hydration, but not good for my gastrointestinal system, and so I made it about 22 miles of that race with severe GI issues.



In August of 2010 I again attempted Kat’cina Mosa. I started out OK following the high sodium regimen, but on the most difficult climb of the race, suffered a severe hyperglycemic episode. I had taken an Ensure before the climb, and about half way up started feeling dizzy and seeing yellow half moons in one of my eyes. I had to stop for about 30 minutes, and wondered if I was having a stroke. I recovered, and made it to the checkpoint at mile 23, and went on to barely make the cutoff at mile 41 at the Little Valley Aid station. At Little Valley, I again drank another ensure, and within 30 minutes started having blood sugar issues again, this again slowed me down, and I had to quit at mile 46. What I discovered is that fructose, especially high fructose corn syrup is not tolerated by my body during long events.

After Kat’cina Mosa, my body was very tired, and I started my second year of graduate school demoralized, and sick. I could no longer keep up with the early morning trainings before school, because I was too tired. I needed at least 12 hours of sleep per night. I managed to struggle my way through Grad school, I attempted the Wasatch 100 in September, but had to drop at mile 18, and it was the most difficult year of POTS in 2010-2011. However, slowly but surely with perseverance and strict adherence to nutritional needs, I started to be able to do things again, and tolerate running. In January of 2011, even though I was still pretty sick, I was able to summit Mount Kilimanjaro, and completed a Snowshoe 50K that same month.

I graduated with my MSW in May of 2011, and tried a 50 miler, but suffered a stress facture and dropped at mile 25. The rest of the season I was out for running. I did, however complete 45 miles of a 100 miler in October of that year. In February of 2012, I underwent a partial hysterectomy. That year of running was a wash, because it took 12 months for my abdominal muscles to strengthen, and I could barely keep a power walking pace. However, I experienced an unexpected benefit of some of my POTS symptoms decreasing in severity. I slowly started improving, and by summer of 2013, I was able to slowly finish 30 miles of a 50 miler.

I again attempted Kat’cina Mosa 100k in 2013, but experienced a panic attack on the course, and dropped at mile 13. I realized on that course that I had experienced so many set backs from racing, that I was having PTSD symptoms on races about DNFing, and as a result DNFing. So in September of 2013, I connected Lisa Smith-Batchen about couching, and working through my running anxiety. My body was working better, but my anxiety was pulling me down.  I was able to complete 50miles on Lisa’s race in 2013, and completed a 50K a week later.  Another challenge that came with POTS and a hysterectomy, is that despite the fact that I exercise and don’t over eat, I gained 50 lbs. After starting training with Lisa, I’ve been able to drop about 25 lbs, and slowly I finally starting to see my weight come off. That has also taken a lot of nutritional adjustments, and continues to be a challenge.

Through a lot of training and effort, I have started completing ultramarathons again in 2014. In January I completed a Snowshoe 50k, I was slow, but I finished! In March I attempted a 100 miler on Antelope, and was only able to make 62/100 miles, but that was the furthest distance I have ever completed, so it was a win. Then I completed the Squaw Peak 50 in June of 2014, I had difficulty with some POTS symptoms in the heat and was slow after mile 33, but I finished! I ran the Deseret News Marathon again and finished on July 24th. And then there was Kat’cina, I felt OK for the most part, but had difficulty on some of the hill climbs with speed, and my heart rate, and it slowed me down. I was rushing to try to get to the cut off at Little Valley by 4:30, but fell and hurt my back on the way down. I was devastated, because I wanted to finish this year so badly, but reflecting, I realize my speed still is increasing, I did not get dehydrated, and my blood sugar stayed stable.



My next challenge to overcome with POTS is increasing heat tolerance, and increasing my ability to tolerate hill climbs and my speed. I’m hoping Kat’cina helped my body so that I can finish Wasatch 100 this year. The first 18 miles are going to be the most difficult for me. That is the big climb on Wasatch, and that is where I have timed out twice. I plan on doing a lot of heat and hill work in the next 3 weeks, and praying that I make it. It is my dream to complete 100 miles, and it is a bigger dream to beat POTS, be a fast runner again, and win a 100-mile race. As my coach says, “If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough”. I know I can do it, I know there is a formula, and somewhere there is a cure for POTS waiting to be discovered. When it is discovered, I’ll be first in line for a cure! I dream of someday, being able to be fast climbing hills again. I visualize it every day. I am faster every year, and yes I still have POTS, but it is not dictating my life.

Some things that I’ve learned from POTS:
Sleep is important. I no longer practice high volume as a midwife because my body doesn’t handle endless nights with no sleep as well as it used to. 

What worked for me may not work for everyone; you should see a doctor who specializes in POTS to determine what is right for you.

Fatigue makes everything difficult, but perseverance out wins fatigue.

Respect your body

Medications: some medication have helped me such as a serotonin–norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor (SNRI). These medications are typically prescribed to treat depression, but with Androgenic POTS SNRIs have help control my norepinephrine response which helps mitigate: dizziness, flu-symptoms, fatigue, and increase blood pressure and circulation. This is what has helped for me, but your case may be different since there are different causes of POTS.

To read more about POTS go to: http://www.dysautonomia

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Squaw Peak 50 Training Run on May 30,2009

Squaw Peak 50 Training Run at the Top of Bozung Hill
Next week I will be running my 5th 50 miler. Squaw Peak is officially rated as the 3rd most difficult course in the U.S for 50 milers. I am calling it good training for the 100 miler I plan on signing up for in the next 12-24 months.

Yesterday was Jeff's birthday, and we spent it running from mile 33 to mile 46.5 with John Bozung and his wife, and a few other crazies who will be there next week . The snow level was pretty low this year. A few difficult spots coming down from Windy Ridge, but from what I had heard, it can be a lot worse. I am excited! This will be an adventure next week, not to mention a beautiful course! Stay tuned for an official race report and more pictures.